hi, life.

I'm certain, absolutely certain that I should be panicing right about now.
As of June 4.. which, I actually think is June 5 now that I see the time..
I officially have no idea what I'm going to do when the school term starts.
"Hayde" My sister tells me, "Welcome to adulthood." Yipes.

I knew it was coming, I mean, I had a calendar on my wall for crying out loud.
The time came where my countdown reached zero, and for all those beautiful memories, good or bad..
I'm left with a piece of paper. Really, it's pretty small. And not only that, but I'm left with the realization that I have no clue what I'm doing with my life. Double Yipes.

I'm already having withdrawals. I mean the fact that I don't hear countless jokes about my fears, speech, or personality in general is just odd. It's been a challenge, this whole.. you know, starting your life over again kind of thing. I've doubt endlessly.. I mean, serious doubt here folks.

&what.. WHAT does God do? Shakes His glorious illuminated head of holiness at me.
I am such a pathetic Christian to have ever, EVER doubt Him.

I've stumbled upon hope my friends. Hope that He needed to shove in my face in order for me to stop doubting. &well, it turned out pretty successful. So what if this happened, and that this won't ever happen.. I needed to decide that I'm not the one in charge of my life, I mean, I can try.. But what's it worth trying for if you darn right know that your going to end up flat on your face. Yeah, I thought so.

So as of right now I currently..
-Don't have money, zip, nada, nothing.
-Although there are some decent ideas of school, nothing is at all finalized.
-Life, as I know it could change for me in a second.
-My little family is trying to overcome some big mountains.

Instead of doubt, I should give my burdens to the Lord. He's had if figured out way before hand. I don't know why on earth I would even try to mess with those plans. Praying, &keeping faith <3